yet another thing i'll never be good at

i am not a very good ass-kisser. i think it's because i really don't care about things like impressing people i don't know and will probably never see again. why bother? anyway, sucking up is really draining to me and is up there with role-play exercises and kidney infections on my least of least-favourite things in life. this past weekend i was away in quebec at part 4 of this seemingly never-ending job interview. basically it was a 3 day schmoozing opportunity with 40 or so applicants battling each other for about 30 jobs. the employers had their own kiosks set up and we were supposed to circulate, mingle, and get interviews with them (if they hadn't already selected us); basically it was hours and hours of ass-kissing. i'm basically an introvert with strangers, with my friends i'm loud and annoying and silly but with strangers, i have a hard time being outgoing especially when i'm pretending to be interested in something i'm not. so at this 'interview', i had to mingle with people, trying to make them love me for 3 days and it was totally fake and exhausting and they didn't end up knowing anything about me in the end...my face is still stiff from all that stupid smiling....i'd better get the stupid job.

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